I just turned 50!  WOW!  I still can’t believe it.

As I look back on the month long celebration I discovered that I am living my best life single.  I also realized that I am looking pretty darn good at 50 and I have an amazing group of friends and family that love me so much.

But as I look at all my fun social media posts, I realized that, Holy Shit, I just turned 50.   I also realized that I am still single. WOW, WOW, WOW.

Now it is possible that I smiled about this and then broke down in to a huge cry session.

Keeping It REAL… this is hard to admit but I am a little afraid of ALL of IT!  If I can be honest with you and tell you that “I don’t have it all figured out”.  My life isn’t always as awesome as I see on my own social media.   I am HERE and I am not flawless.  None of us are as perfect as we are on social media.

This is who I am, some days I feel like a total fraud!  The other days I am Wonder Woman.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the good, the pretty and the perfect of social media we forget what the “REAL” is anymore.  My stories and posts are real and my mission statement is “Let me take you on adventure”.  I truly live my mission statement.  Life is also messy and so am I!

I am 50, single and if my gyno brings up menopause one more time, she is getting punched.  It is so hard to stay in shape these days, where did cellulite come from and how much Botox is needed to age gracefully?  This is what keeps me up at night.  I also struggle with owning my own business, always doing business development to ensure I have income while perusing my passion of empowering everyone to live their best life.  Sometimes I am tired of being alone and doing this all by myself.  I would rather be alone than lower my standards, but dangit “the struggle is real”.

I want to thank each and every one of you for allowing me to share my story, to be vulnerable.  I so struggle with this.  I also deeply love you for not judging me and supporting me in my goals and dreams.